Wednesday, November 22, 2006
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Thursday, September 14, 2006
hmmm... Went to visit my aunt these 2 days.. Felt sorry 4 her.. Struggling in pain, yet she doesnt wanna go yet.. Struggling so hard to make every minute count.. She's nt too old though.. only 59.. Looking at the situation, i cant help but kept thinking.. wat if tat is my mum?
Life is so fragile.. during chinese new yr, my aunt is still ok.. in a shortspan of 6mths, she's lying on the bed struggling to stay alive.. Maybe her biggest regret is not to be able to see her only son get married.. I start to think to myself.. Have i spent enuff time with my parents? Have i treat them well enuff? Have I been a gd son? Have i neglected them?
The answer is no to all... I hardly ever spend time at hm.. the only time i'm at hm is sleep.. i hardly ever get the chance to chat with them.. maybe less than 10 sentence a day? sometimes, me and my dad don even get to see each other. haha.. goodness gracious... and yup.. i didnt treat them nicely at all.. i am rude to them.. and at times, so disrespectful.. to them, i am deemed as the black sheep of the hse.. i am the only one who got caned in sch b4. i am e only smoker.. e only one retained.. the only guy who dyed hair b4.. the only guy with piercing.. i and the only child in the family whom did not graduate frm a govt uni.. Haha.. I always get very hurt when i learn hw useless i am in their eyes.. hw much i have disappointed them.. But i realised.. its my own fault to make them feel this way..
I remembered my bro, Wong said this to me b4.. 'y wanna continue like this with your dad? how much time more do u have with them?' this struck me tat time.. but i slowly forgotten it.. but nw, i hope i wont.. this time rd.. i want to do well in my studies.. my last chance frm my dad.. i cant disappoint anymore.. like he told me.. i am the only 1 left in the family tat they are still worrying abt.. i must deliver.. Nothing's gonna come into my way.. What i am doing nw will determine my next 5-10 yrs of my life.. i cant be a kid anymore.
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Sunday, August 13, 2006
hmmm.. had a fine day yest.. had an outing with some old frens.. did chill abit.. like usual..walking ard aimlessly.. cannot decided on where to go.. finally settled down for a drink.. maybe we juz don feel like gg hm.. The process of this outing was made comical by lotsa incidents.. haha.. made me rem the gd old times.. Suddenly it occured to me that time flew.. Some ppl ard us changed.. Some struck by bad karma.. But itz still gd to reliesh such gd moments with these gd old frens..
realised that itz been so long since i last blogged.. Ppl may wonder y? actually i dunno.. I realised i don have the patience to complete my blog.. i realise there's nothing much to be posted.. i realise i dun have time to do such things.
well.. karma is a strange thing.. i realised itz juz like a boomerang.. those things that i've said abt others, done onto others seem to hit me back like a boomerang.. The similarities so familiar that it seemed so freaky to me.. itz like god want me to learn my lesson. Tat sometimes i shld undersstand other ppl's circumstances. and don instill wat i think into others. cos it doesnt work and that sometimes it cause a strain.. like my good campmate used to tell me.. we can advise others but we cannot tell them wat to do.. haha.. i shld start learning..
haha.. welcome back pang.. congrats to u too.. curious animals! u can juz approach him
ciaoz world..
welcome to my life
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Sunday, June 04, 2006
*shakes head*
1st thing 1st.. i wld like to apologise to steph.. sorry gal.. i wasnt able to attend ya 21st bday party and i'm definately sorry that i didnt even notify u. I hoped u had a great 21st bday.. and nt like me.. i didnt even get to celebrate it. 21 yr old liaoz. grow up le. cannot think like a little gal anymore. hee.. alrite. once again happy birthday. we will see each other soon.
2nd thing i wanna highlight. to a fren of mine. KA. I noe u are very affected.. in this world, there's really no such thing as balance or equal treatment. u do something, u cant expect the same in return. The world is unfair 1 la. itz either u are at the recieving end or the giving end. So chill.
Hmmm.. juz wanna say.. to everyone, wat is happiness? or rather hw do we archieve happiness? or hw can we make our life happy? hmmm.. to me, i try to think of the positives.. cos i noe.. when one keeps thinking abt the negatives and cannot put those negatives behind their back, these negatives will juz keep on accumulating. Snowballing effect.. gd things are easier to forget.. bad things aint.. but if we keep thinking abt the bad things and nt the gd ones, hw can 1 be happy? easier said than done.. but itz not unarchievable. wats the pt of taking all the bad things out and keep talking abt them? it only makes life more miserable.. the old phrase..'let bygones be bygones'.. but once again, eaiser said than done.. finally.. whether one is happy or not. depends alot on individual. the way we think. and the way we look at things.
hence i conclude.. happiness is up to us. whether we want it or nt. Ppl can try to make one happy, but ultimately if one doesnt wanna be happy, den no matter hw much other ppl try, itz futile.. do u agree with me my dear readers out there?
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Wednesday, May 24, 2006
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON? WHY WHY WHY? FUCK THE WORLD. TO HELL WITH ALL.
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well.. didnt really have much to do.. decided to blog again.. hmmm.. watched some movies.. Lie with me, da vinci code and over the hedge. Let me juz give reviews to these movies since i dont really have much to do..
Lie With MeWell.. Itz was dubbed as the most erotic R21 movie ever screened.. True.. this movie is all abt sex.. nothing but sex. sex anywhere.. anytime.. Sounds exciting? trust me.. itz not... i was told by a fren, 'wah this show will set ya heart pumping'... apparently, it did not.. I actually felt the movie 'keeping mum' by rowan akinson turned me on more... LOLz.. Well this is a show for ppl who like cheap thrills..
My words: 1/5
Da Vinci CodeIts so funny how my good fren jx can come up with all the sex themes for these movies... Like poisedon can become pussydon and da vinci code becomes da pussy code. LOLz.. quite amusing.. i am waiting for him to change mission impossible to mission impussyble.. LOLz.. This movie is alrite..Itz juz like memoirs of the geisha, black hawk down, etc.. once u read the boOk, u will find that the movie is nt as good... but still one of the better movies of the late
My words: 3.5/5
Over the Hedge
Well so much cartoons came out this yr.. ice age 2, chicken little, the wild and nw over the hedge.. They all are so similar.. as in the wild, and over the hedge is so similar.. same as finding nemo.. but still all the cartoons are ever tat funny.. lame maybe.. but i still prefer the good old nemo.. it was quite original.. but overall over the hedge is still a movie for cartoon lovers!
My words: 3/5
Hw can i ever make u believe tat all i've said is true.. Hw can i.. Pls believe me..
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Monday, May 15, 2006
well well.. didnt noe i will blog again so fast.. kinda free on a monday.. i came to realise that after i ORD-ed, no amt of sleep is enuff for me as i keep feeling very tired.. well.. lets see.. oh ya! movie review!
Poisedon
Well i watched this movie over the weekend.. To be honest with u, when i 1st saw the title, i wasnt too fascinated by it.. but after seeing rave reviews abt this movie from the papers and thru frens, i decide to watch it.. It was a short movie.. 1.5hrs.. But i wld say, itz worth every single penny.. Its non-stop action rite frm the start... Action juz keeps coming and coming non-stop.. And itz a typical movie with a main hero who never dies and another hero that sacrifaces... etc etc.. itz typical, but we simply juz love it, don we? Gd movie.. gd effects.. i wld rate it.. 4/5.
Hmmm these 3 days for me has been fantastic.. I enjoyed every minute of it.. i felt so happy.. thanks baby.. Its great.. I dunno wat else to describe this feeling.. Itz totally over the moon..
hmm.. In life.. hw many regrets do we have? Issit only thru losing, den we will start to learn abt cherishing.. In life, when we said we tot it thru when we make certain decisions, did we really tot it thru? was those tots clouded by emotions? Hw many times in life when we make a decision tat we regret, and when we try to salvage it, itz too late.. When things happen, hw many times we pointed fingers at others instead of pointing fingers to the problem.. Recently, i saw something happened. Though i hate to see it, but i forsee it coming.. I juz hope for the best for them.. and hope they grew from there.. hope they will do some self-reflections and see wat went wrong.. so the nx one coming wld be a better one.. i wish your all the best..
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Friday, May 12, 2006
Hi everybody.. its been more than 1 mth since i last post.. juz to tell your, i'm not dead yet.. haha.. Lots of things happened and lots of things passed.. juz wanna say sorry that i'm too busy to make any post.. Lets see wat are the significant thngs tat have happened..
Oh ya! i got my pink IC.. At 1st i tot i wld be damn excited abt getting it or that i will be damn excited leading another kind of life.. oh well.. i'm wrong.. I didnt feel a shit.. Maybe i already started leading a civilian way b4 i ord.. People say u wld get sad when u leave the camp.. Surprisingly, i didnt feel a shit.. Itz gd to be part of the cdo.. it is something that will always make me proud and a benchmark in my life.. For honour and glory..
Hmmm.. well nothing much really happened after this.. my gd bro pang left for US for 3 mths.. well the outing was gd.. the drinking session was gd.. gd luck to u pang.. bon voyage
Nx.. oh ya! i recieved letters from SMU and NUS.. once again.. their replies were: 'pls fuck off, u r juz not good enuff' alrite... seems like i am destined for SIM.. alrite.. so be it.. life goes on..
Lastly, to 'it',
i'm so sorry.. i've got no other choice.. u juz came at the wrong time.. a lot of times i tot it will be great to include u in my life, but i cant.. cause it will cause too much complication.. sorry u muz go.. pls forgive me..
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